Thursday, December 4, 2008

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let her go


it plays in my

head:

the call

where you know what it’s for

but

you still stammer,

“what?!”


going to get it

one day,

i can already

taste

the salt from

my tears.

already feel

the anger,

resentment.

never

never in my life

have i felt so

lost.

so damn alone.

they say,

“i’m sorry”

for what?

you didn’t do anything

or my favorite

“i’m praying for you”

makes me cringe

hearing that

what do i say?

“thanks?”

“i’m glad you’re praying?”

for a miracle that

won’t

happen

really though,

i’m glad you won’t do anything.

for me,

my family,

my father,

for a marriage of 32 years!


however,

i’m glad you don’t know,

nor understand,

as my heart is

empty,

bitter, and

my world is dropping out from under me

it’s the freefall without the thrill

only ends with me trying

to catch my breath

trying to

think and walk straight;

i’ll get the call and i’ll be numb

that’ll be the easiest part you know

the beginning of letting

her go


so i think

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