Not Ready

as my tears

burn my eyes

i think of her:

i’m not ready

not ready for any of it,

as

she needn’t be

gone

so soon

as i still need

advice

she still has

to see me finish

what i started

i clump together tonight,

my emotions,

so shallow

as they show through

in

the way i walk

the way that i’m just

different

i can’t take it

i

catch my breath:

i can’t tell you

how this feels